太委屈

this song is nice hor.. ever since this friend sent me this song ah.. i'd been listening to so many time.. very meaningful indeed...

i think i'm into the "太委屈" position... be it who, what, when, where, why, how.. "太委屈" really describe perfectly for me now! ppl like to 委屈 me.. ppl purposely dun understand...

i have finally train up this brand new level of skill.. called.... " LAN DE LI!!!!!!"

really nice song.. i can listen to it non-stop!!!!! old song i know.. but really nice.. meaningful..

Lost!

its been so long since i blog... guess i'm a little lost now.. i dun know what to write.. or rather.. there's isnt much for me to write? i dun know... dun feel like writing those unhappy things here.. will only reminds me when i write and when i read next time....

i'm total lost now! what to write??????????

oh ya.. ok.. shall go to the most traditional way to update then...

Monday - i seriously forgot what happen on monday.. gosh~ work work work.. forgot details...

Tuesday... i seriously forgot as well... only know wednesday is a holiday... OH YA!!!! ok ok.. tuesday met up with sy and hua for our free dinner.. ok ok.. this one at least i remember.. haha

wednesday.. National day.. stayed at home.. watch NDP..

thursday... work.. work.. work.. coz wednesday was a holiday.. my working week shorten.. so i have less time to complete my work.. so working damn real hard.. and hey.. i think.. my eng period reaching soon.. think only la.. who knows.. other things waiting for me liao leh.. hmmm.. i dun know..

friday... work.. after work go to my balangra-aerobric (not very sure of the spelling leh,,).. its a nice workout.. its aerobric.. but indian style.. so will have indian dance move and listen to indian song.. serious.. it is a great workout! but the room was too small to cater us.. so friday was good as many were on leave.. so we can really run whole room... i sweat the most man! haha.. after the aerobric i rush down to tanjong pagar.. catching my 2nd class - salsa!!!! sign up for salsa class.. and was so excited.. i was a bit late.. but finding the building was another big challenge.. never work in town ah.. really dun know the way there leh.. like 3 mountain turtle walking on shenton way on friday night lo.. really MIA lo... coz we all dun work in tanjong pagar mah.. really dun know how to walk lo.. ended up.. we walk walk walk walk... from 825 walk till 9pm finally found the building!!!!!!!!! and the building wasn't look like any of the building u found in tanjong pagar lo... really old one lo.. the lift also one kind.. too fat ah.. cannot go into the lift liao.. guess it never have overweight problem.. coz can't even squeeze thru' the door~ hahaha...
so the lesson suppose to start at 830pm on lo.. we ended up reach there almost 9pm liao.. how to go lesson.. so go there register for another day class lo...
but i still dun know which date.. so ppl!!! SALSA ANYONE?????????? lets go shake our butt butt!!!
$70 for 5 lesson... sound reasonable la...
never go salsa.. ended up.. we still have our very own salsa lesson at DXO ok? hahaa... oh btw .. its still a trip worthwhile.. coz.. instead of squeezing with ppl at the esplanade to watch the fireworks.. we.. at the road junction in shenton way.. also can see the fireworks.. very nice wor! dun have to squeeze.. no ppl... only few of us... and we can see whatever ppl are veiwing at esplanade.. so who say must go there? got other better spot ok? hahahaha....

oh.. basically... tt's all...
tml monday again..
hopefully nothing will happen and let me have one week pass peacefully ba!
my boss did my apraisal and ranking and banding with other dept.. i told him.. if got 6mths bonus i treat u lunch. whahahaha.... and guess what.. his reply... "6mths bonus .. lunch.. ON U" but i guess 6mths difficult la.. looking at how we did this yr.. got 4mths already can smile liao lo....i won't dream of anything more than tt...
hmmm.. i wonder.. really bor huh? hahaha....

so tired..

Feeling tired recently.. i find no energy in doing everything... i dun know why.. hmmm....

Work is really stressful recently. dun understand y everything must have mock up mock up.. think we all very eng meh? this also mock up.. that also mock up... by the time finish mock up.. actual liao leh.. or worse... actual is here liao still haven't finish the mock up! whatever la... ranking and banding is here again.. the point where it determine how many months bonus i'll be getting.. hmmm... Mr Boss.. thanks leh.. i buy u breakfast lo ok? haha...
i really find no leisure in work recently.. sian.. work also can't put in my 100% concentration.. i need a move a push.. someone.. pls do something...

feeling tired easily recently.. i can slp damn early and still so sleepy the next day..

oh ya! happy birthday Singapore... i love it coz its a holiday for me! meaning wake up late, no work! haha..

but i really dun understand y is it tt always when it come to near national day.. i'll read all those articles abt singapore.. about how great or fortunate to be a singaporean.. about how wonderful it is to live on this island.. about the history how great someone is in contributing to this island.. etc etc etc... its only this period that u'll read such things in the newspaper.. so fake right? how about other days? after today.. no one will remember who is the one writing our national song.. who is the one writing our national pledge. who is the one turning singapore to what we r today?
only this period.. u'll hear.. oh i love singapore.. other days leh? sighed....

been planning taiwan trip with my friends this coming november.. can't wait for it to come.. i need a break.. i need a tour to somewhere far.. far..
TAIWAN!!! i'm coming!!! sort out all ur political issue and when i'm there.. dun have anything happen huh... hahahaha.. as a Singaporean.. i dun know what is strike hor.. hahaha. so dun show me when i'm there!!!

I'm BACK!!!

I'mmmmmm back everybody.... been MIA for sometime from here.. oh well.. guess i jus not at my usual self since then till now.. but rest assured.. I"M BACK FOR GOOD~!!!!!

oh.. recently wasn't very happy about all things.. so ya.. i'm tired and the best word to descirbe is .. SIAN ...

Work is ok.. somehting different.. my team is very small.. only 3 of us and we have to do the whole company consolidation accounts. 3 ppl nia leh... liew... but the 3 of us work like family.. whahaha... namely the lao da! lao er! and me the lao san... sighed... most junior and youngest also mah.. whahaha... that 2 was good.. damn good.. can work with them and learn from them is really blessed.. i indeed learn alot from them u know.. mai play play.. see things also differently.. they r so experienced.. so ya.. quietly quietly learn my things from them first ba!

other than that.. i shall not comment on the others. coz its real disappointing when u realised how others treat you when u r not there with them. being transferred out doesn't means i work for a different company. they have the cheek to say conflict of interest? hello??? i'm doing group consolidation.. conflict what interst? whatever u entity are doing will eventually flow up to group what..? sometimes.. the way the talk.. really reflect how well their knowledge is.. sighed.. and.. never work with them and working with them is different story.. never work with them i dun care what's wrong with ur work or company.. but work with them ah.. liew.. see their work huh.. liew... can faint one lo... this kind also can produce.. go tell them they also buai song.. its such long long long stroy la.. they r just unbalance ppl.. high jealousy one.. sighed...

enough of work.. now i only work.. i go there to work.. tt's all.. tt's the attitude.. anyway.. i dun report to u, so ya.. u know.. so long i can work well with my team tt's the most impt. i dun care what others think and look on me.. coz i know.. i never changed.. u changed in the first place.. i'll adjust to the environment.

recently i just drop a big stone/rock from my chest.. i'd been holding it for too long.. initially i dun mind holding it. infact i feel good holding it... as time goes by.. its becoming heavier and heavier till i can feel the stress and fustration of holding it longer... i dun wan to hold it.. but there's the some strange thing tt still keep me holding it.. till... i realised .. how stupid am i holding on to the stone that eventually won't turn into diamond. i decided to let it go.. initially it was hard.. i dun bear to leave the stone i'm holding on for so long.. but.. onces i let it go.. i realised.. how lighten i'd become.. how wonderful it is w/o that big heavy stone on my chest. i felt so good now...
really.. really..