Friday, May 25, 2007

I need a break....

I need a break!!!!!

I'm tired.. I'm exhuasted.. I have no more drive and passion.. how? this is tiring and scary. and i seriously need a break to recharge myself.. work has been very demanding and endless... stress is building in me till so difficult to manage....

just imagine. everyday u reach ofc... beside meeting.. still meeting... and discussion.. every meetings comes with actions items to be cleared at certain date.. every meeting will means additional work to me.. every discussion would means more research and work to be done.. and aside the operationally work have to also handle projects which is VERY IMPT in all eyes.. all this.. withing office hour.. what can i do within 1 working day.. alot of days r just attending meetings and discussion.. let alone find time to clear my usual stuff.. they really stretch u to the max!!!! drain out liao la... seriously have no drive and passion to what i'm doing now.. hate it!

soooo.. as i was saying... i need a break.. and i deserve a break!!! and so.. I GOT A BREAK!!! whahahha.. will be going Hong Kong this august.. omg! i can't wait!!!!!!!! need a well deserving break before the start of hell soon....

everything had confirmed and finalise.. this is going to be an exciting trip man!!! i can't wait!

for now.. guess i shall do less shopping and best dun buy anymore new shoes.. clothes.. bags.. whatever.. coz.. who care abt GSS. i'm going HK SUMMER SALES!! hahahahahaaahhha

A friend of mine contacted me recently... well well.. she makes me feel something... i dun understand her decision made in the first place.. but seems like things is not working out for her.. ended up.. last May got married.. this May tell me filing for divorce. and she's 6mths pregnant. For some reason we didn't contact.. and now seems like its the time when she need someone with her.. to encourage her and to give her comfort or assurance.. but for another reason i really wish to be there for her and with her. but i also have my reason to pull myself away from her.. i feel for her too. i wanted to lend her my shoulder and ears.. but.. things might get complicated and i HATE complicating issue..

i dun know.. feeling bad whenever she ask to meet up and i would just tell her i'm busy at work. not 100% lies.. coz i'm really busy at work.. but.. i dun know.. feeling vexed..

for whatever reason.. since she had chose this path.. she got to carry on.. wish her happy ba..

Love..what is it actually? i think it does not apply to her in the first place... how sad. and L O V E this 4 letter word seems to lose its definition....

Thursday, May 24, 2007

OUCH! MISSEY... GENTLE LEH...


YEs....no doubt.. not wrong.. this is my poor little hand now... i'm damn sad and angry how could they do such thing on me!!!
i'm doing a good deed to donate my blood leh.. how could they do this to my poor hand! for the first time i must admit.. donating blood is PAINFUL lo.. tt missey... seriously.. bor license one lo.....
She was kind.. she was nice.. she was friendly.. she make me feel good.. but.. but.. but.. she was not experience la... oh my god!! i'd never donate blood till having to suffer so much.. when she start to find my vain i get worried.. coz such a big vain.. even my eyes can see clearly. how could she miss it! onces tt needle is not.. no blood.. she push in further.. still no blood.. so she decided to twist it inside my flesh lo.. GOODNESS.. twist it leh~!! i can even feel it under my skin.. i hate tt feeling.. i'm suppose to have no FEELING!untill she see blood.. but my blood was flowing slow.. so she help to speed up by rubbing my hand..yes, with the needle still inside....till i see the pack was 3/4 full.. i got pissed!

at that time.. i was angry... dun try to fool me lo... still got the cheek to tell me donate blood is like this.. xiao jie.. this is not my frist time lo.. i started donating my blood since poly lo... i'm so angry... how could she do such thing to my hand! so protect my poor little hand i ask her to stop.. STOP! and she got panic.. thinking i'm fainting! haha.. immediately stop but also adjust my bed to "leg up head down" position.. liew..... MISS.. i'm wearing a skirt lo.... i got more angry! still she dun let me sit up lo... even have to wait doctor to come.. i'm really pissed donating my blood this time....
would there be next time u ask me... got to suffer all this shit to donate one pack of blood....
and my answer is.... OF COZ! hahahhaha..... it still won't take my life la.. but i believe.. i won't be so suay to meet this kind of untrainned nurse again ba! this is really HORRIBLE!
i only wonder.. when then recover... tml got D&D leh.. how to wear nice nice with this.. omg!!!!